Itchy Head

Sitting idle brings despair and gloom gets nowhere but awaiting doom why sit doing nothing why not bloom kicking up joy rather panting in the room cleaning webs of thoughts with a broom my heart goes thumping…whom whom... We are accustomed to so much activity around that just having timing out for a bit longer makes everyone suspicious.  Nobody believes if anybody can have fun in solitude doing nothing but relishing the moments passing by and recollecting all that went by and all possibilities that awaits. Roads will be jammed. Lights on the crossings will be long gone and horns will be on, full with people locking horns to reach places which may be as maddening as they are themselves to celebrate eve of New Year or dawn of New Year, whatever it means to different people. Same day, same moments but different meaning to different people and no meaning to some people. The cop managing traffic is harried. Hardly bothered whether it’s New Year or old whe...

When one of your close relative is in a hospital and your mind is busy doing the mathematics of billing and admission department of your finances, you get calls from a number of relatives – his side and her side, jostling to pay a visit, out of love, care, consideration and of course social pressure. To be the first among the rest to destroy the rest of the patient and of the people in his close vicinity. Hospital is more like a five star. All facilities. All smiles. All ears with a tear in your pocket. You wonder that it’s not a state run hospital. It’s a highly super specialty hospital, where you’re not allowed to carry anything except yourself. Everything in your bag is sniffed off the moment you step inside. There are more security personnel here than on the international airport. You can’t carry even a small biscuit packet which makes you wonder if all this checking is to keep the economy of this hospital in check. All these relatives are hell bound on who from which side bring...

It's not always right to wait for the tide to be in our favor. We have to be proactive to know the wind and understand the weather to proceed accordingly. Things will be somewhat similar. Sometimes there'd be rain, sometimes drought, sometimes fall and some other times floods to complain about . Spring is for a very short while only. Problems and constraints change as per the situation but they're never out of sight if we focus on them. Let's focus on our goal. What we want from the day,for the day.  What I do today will shape my future. Even if I've nothing to do, I must make a to-do list to find out what all I'm capable of and what all challenges lie ahead.

Budgeting gives me jitters.  My dad had been accounting each paisa in his life and he’d been very sharp at it too, and maybe I also inherited his habit of counting and recounting and accounting my sheets of green paper again and again.  I also get a sort of pleasure in doing so but I sometimes feel that I behave like a miser on occasions. Leave alone hard currency, my sister still teases me about a time of our childhood when I had lent a small stud of a pencil to my classmate and she’d to come to our house to return that, and I  didn't  let her enter our house.  It’s a different matter actually as I had always been very conscious of myself and my house for certain reasons, and I was always conscious of ‘what’ll people say?’ thing which I gradually realized is a damn thing in itself. Secondly, I was very private person, never liking intruding in my space by anybody due to the same fear of people’s judgments. Okay.  ...

I posted my picture. My ever beautiful,cutest,loveliest picture craving for LIKES I'd taken about one hundred seventy two pictures and then selected this picture after checking and rechecking it from different angles and anticipating people's reaction to it.  I had to stand on the lowest corner railing, which is even having a crack and is broken from one angle, to take this cutest picture of mine but never mind as long as people give me more and more likes on this. I'm sure I'm going to have a lot many LIKES on this picture. I waited...waited...waited. I waited for THREE hours!  Didn't get any likes:( I am just irritated. Now, I don't get interested in anything. You know how much efforts I put into clicking this picture! I nearly spent four hours to click it. Even I'd to get my dad's scolding for it and my brother threatened to delete it if I didn't treat him with an expensive ice-cream. I done all that and see here I am...

'Don't mind her words,she's sweet by heart.' 'She's a pure soul.' I looked up in astonishment. Do I have to eat her heart? Why should I be bothered whether she's a pure soul or not? I'm hurt by her words and that's all what I know! How easy it is to just blurt out anything on anybody and pacify later by saying - 'She's sweet by heart,don't mind her.' Wouldn't it be better that she should've herself minded her words before bringing them out on others and willingly hurt them. It's unjustifiable to just open your big mouth on anybody and expect them to be just normal with you a second later. We get hurt too. If the same treatment would've been given to you, wouldn't you mind? No matter how pure is your soul? If you're really so pure and sweet by heart then please mind your words and others' feelings before uttering out.

What is life without colors? Books are an exception. They can be colorful without colors. 'M om,these are for you.' my ten year old brought two thick Harry Potter series for me. I was flabbergasted.  'Soooooo thick books!'  I always encouraged book reading in my house or so I thought. In fact, my house is a mini library or sort of.  I was myself a bookworm type of a kid ever since I knew myself but I was more like Alice in wonderland. I love pictures in a book. No dull words please!  Reading books without pictures makes me sleepy and that too thick novels like these? No way! Anyhow, I can't bubble out my thoughts when my kids are so enthusiastic about bringing those all hyped books for me. I show delight. They want a commitment that I would read these - from beginning till end. I feel like - No Way! but I just smile in a non committal way. Now, the task.  Each day, my darling kids ask me,'Mom,have you read the books?'...

'You'r a housewife, how come u r short of time?' 'You've all time in the world at you disposal.' 'What you've to do anyway throughout the day but to just watch tv and linger around for shopping.' and all this bullshit. Hah!  How can people just take a housewife so granted. You know if I just strike for a day, the whole house crumble down at your knees. It's only I - who take mercy on you morons to take care of you and your people so that you carry on a 'oh so nice smelling,well dressed,well fed fellow.' Even if that means I didn't take a bath throughout the day and couldn't afford a sit down single meal for myself. I am your production house, which puts the whole picture together. I manage your cash and even your cashlessness then why you show this callousness towards me.  I know the hole in your socks but stitch it together to mend your ego in the world. I paint the rosy picture to make your life high on this hi...

A few months back, I just took a break from work to relax and to plan many other things which I had been postponing in the course of my professional commitments. I made a list of many things which had to be done. And one thing which I thought I should get fixed was my so called wisdom tooth on the right side of my jaw. Though, I had no major problem with my wisdom tooth and my jaw but I forethought to get it fixed before I am old enough and catch other deadly diseases and I might not be able to concentrate fully on my dear tooth. WWWWWWWW MMMMMMMMMM To prove to be last nail on the coffin, I was also persuaded to take this decision as my dear husband works in a state run hospital and therefore I took it granted that doctors would be good enough and I would be taken good care of. Anyway, that D-day arrived, and I very confidently went to the senior most dentist/dental surgeon of the department. After an OPG (X-ray of my big mouth) he took decision to take that tooth out...

My nine year old son is a googlebox. Oh I tell you, he's always questioning. About this,that or anything and everything. ? I know that kids learn by asking and we must answer all their questions but wait. Are we parents really able to answer them Always and anyway do we really need to Answer them Always .  No I don't agree with answering them always because that way we feed them with answers. Won't it be more appropriate if they find the answers themselves? Till now, I used to provide or give answers to all questions hurled on me by my kids. Then, I started discussing them but lately I realized it's more important that they understand and reflect what is being filled as answers in them rather than me answering them always. So, when a question is batted on me now, I counter question about that thing. He scratches his head a little bit and starts relating things and by linking the answers we together reach on the final answer. For example,lat...

I made a plan. I am rather good in making plans. I planned to be awake every morning by 5 o'clock, do some exercise yoga etc.,getting ready and so on... I stuck to my plans for about a week or so and then ...again.. to zero...wondering. Morning Sun is always promising but even if Sun is not there and It is a cloudy day, it's always great to have our routine in place to get most out of the day. I promised myself. Tomorrow surely. I'll spring out of bed as soon as the alarm goes. I made plans again. and next morning...alarm went...I looked at it...looked outside and thought 'how dark it is already.' 'even dogs are sleeping.I'll take just fifteen minutes more...' and again I was sleeping. but now I'm hell determined to make it work and surely I'll make it work.How ? This way... I need to remind myself or write down the benefits and tasks I can accomplish by getting up early. I need to sleep on time considering my body...

K eeping relationships is really a challenge. It's not about just the man-woman relationship but all sorts of itchy bitchy kinds. Each one of us have our own likes, dislikes,conflicts and prejudices. Keeping pace with all of these of others is something which is mind boggling. Makes us nauseating sometimes. It's quite automatic to be green horn monster and spit fire when we are provoked Why all this bitchy stuff this world is made of ?- this is what comes in our mind. No? sometimes, when we are really very sick of all this. We want to cry. We just think we are right then why can't the other person get his perspective right? Can't he see his point is not human? Wait a minute...Human-that is to err and we all err. All of us. No one is an exception. Had I been a perfect; that other person who is with me wouldn't have been fighting with me anyhow and reverse is also true. I know all this stuff. I know I must just take a time out and leave the ro...

It's a tough life. Why? Because I'm somewhat thin. The weighing scale looks at me laughing and pointing that I need some more weight. People around me do no better than this. Now, you will wonder this is about being thin or being obese! Well, my dear, this is about the right approach. I have a lot many friends who are healthily fat and active and equally thin number of friends who are thin like a reed but happy and actively doing every chore of their life. I don't advocate being unhealthy. Weather you are thin or fat, doesn't make much difference till the time you are okay with it.  The day you start having problem with the situation, get up and get going.  Change yourself for yourself.  Don't change for the heck of it. Be happy. Change your lifestyle if it is no longer suitable to your health. The perception of people can never make us happy and believe me being fat or thin has nothing to do with it.  Many people just don't have anything else...

Most of us keep waiting for the perfect day to pop up somewhere. But no. That day never comes perhaps because all the days are same. Only our perception and attitude changes the day from good to bad or bad to good. With technological advances, we are carried away by the success stories or the portrayals of selfie obsessed people and start believing them word by word. No world is perfect for anybody. The difference lies in our head.  We have to make the difference and for that purpose it's damn important that we do our best at this moment rather than waiting for a rose garden across the shore. All of us can not be the moon but we can be a star in the arena we are working right now.  We can be a good human being. We can be a little more kind and compassionate.  We don't need to strangulate our relationships under the burden of false expectations. What more is needed?  A smile a day is more than enough to make this day and a sincere effort to carry on wit...

You don't get, what you see. Always dive down deeper to get the facts right.

Monday Morning Funday Morning It's in our minds to be what we want to be. We vision and we get. 

When we come on this Earth, we already have so many strings attached to ourselves. These strings are in the form of expectations.  The ups and downs of life must not deter us from doing the doable - our duties From a baby to our journey upwards, we have to constantly confirm to the demands set by others. Sometimes, we are successful in getting our way and many a times we have to pave the way. We have to succumb to the demands of 'others', who are very much a part of ourselves but they refuse to understand us. When we seek the approvals we are told ' use your head', but when we take the plunge we are frowned upon ' Did you even ask me?'. It's a dual mindset society.  Conviction is the key. Do we always have to look up to others for our deeds.  At every step in our life we must take the fear head on - No matter I don't confirm to their standards; if my deeds are good for myself, I make something worthwhile then it's ok to follow my...

Now a days, we have this huge epidemic of 'children refusing to eat' in almost every house which can very well afford to give the best to their children. This is not a scenario in your house or my house, be assured every mom of your child's friends would be complaining exactly what you or I do. Bringing up two children, I realized that this may vary from children to children depending on the eating habits of the household that they belong to but many a times we ignore our ignorance and continue with our poor knowledge of child or in a way human eating psychology before filling their plates. Here, I share a small excerpt from my kids handling, which I realized after so many years how dangerous it was while feeding my toddlers :- 'Finish fast or you'll be late for school.' I gulped down hearing her on my head. I felt like throwing up. My tummy was gurgling or doing something like that but mom would not believe me. 'Why can't you take sma...

Kids need love & understanding. Nothing is more important than our bonding with them, not even their studies. They need to be nurtured not forced upon with instructions. They learn by example.  We have our careers for our reasons. Our children never forced us to bring them in this world. We brought them here because of our selfish reasons.  They were pure souls oblivious of their journey of coming into our worlds. We have a responsibility towards them.  We can't blame them. We need to take responsibility first. I am witness to the ordeal of a small child near my neighborhood and sharing her life with you. May be it could show a mirror to many of us, who have forgotten a few things in the journey of parenting - M y mom is very beautiful; everybody says so. She's fair - complexion-wise but has never been fair enough to me. This is a real world - out of some horror story, but it's real and my mom...she's real but nobody believes me because she...